Ashley Jamesのインスタグラム(ashleylouisejames) - 4月19日 05時07分

The craziest and most emotional thing about becoming a mum of two, is linked to my relationship with Alf. This reel made me hugely emotional. 🥹❤️ I love @jessurlichs and her poetry has always resonated throughout the highs and lows of motherhood. This is her poem, One to Two, and I think it articulates some of my feelings perfectly.

Firstly, the transition from 1-2 has been WAY easier than 0-1. But Alf was my first born and therefore my first everything. He was the light in my life when the world was uncertain and locked down. We learned together. He'll always be the person who made me a mum. And even when I hit rock bottom with postnatal depression and trying to get my head around my mum identity - it was my love for him that kept me going.

It's been SO lovely watching him become a big brother. I wouldn't say it's love at first sight for him, but he's been adapting SO well, and instead of asking me to put her down, he now tells me to feed her. You can see in the video when we first brought her home he went to give her one of his 'that's not my...' books, which is really high praise for Alf. There's been some beautiful moments and my heart is bursting.

I honestly cannot WAIT to watch their relationship together grow.

It's also been so emotional for me since having Ada. My gorgeous baby boy suddenly feels so big. It's hard to put into words how emotional that is! Like I want time to freeze and for him to just stay my tiny perfect boy.

The hardest thing about having a C Section has not been able to carry and hold him. But I have to say having Ada has been really healing for me - it's reminded me of just how special and happy I was when Alf was a newborn. Before all my own challenges with matrasense and recovering from birth, and dealing with how much my world had changed coming out of lockdown. It's also made me so proud of how I navigated myself as a new mum and my tenacity. Alf was a very different baby to Ada - he needed feeding every hour for the first year - which also meant waking every hour. It's a reminder that all babies are different and all we can do is follow our instinct.

I'm so happy he was my firstborn. I'm so grateful for them both❤️

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