ギャランス・ドレさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ギャランス・ドレInstagram)「Do I look peaceful in that photo? . Because I am not. . Meditating is not about floating in the ether or talking to God, it’s about being intensely present. It’s not hard. It’s pretty easy. The part that’s hard about it is to make it a practice. To do it everyday. Happy, sad, busy, just sit for a few minutes and do it. . It’s the keeping at it that’s the challenge, the teaching, and the way. . The day @em_note note took that photo, I had fallen off my practice and was trying to get back to it. I had gone from 20 minutes a day back down to a excruciatingly forced five super agitated minutes. Sometimes I could only make it to three and feel so very angry after that I wanted to throw my 🤬 timer against the wall. Because I thought my timer didn’t work. Because there was no way one minute could be that long. . I didn’t think I had failed. Or that I wasn’t made for it, or that meditation was new agey trendy stupid annoying bullshit anyway. Well I did, but I let that thought pass 😂😂😂. Then I got back to the commitment I made to myself [at our retreat in Chile] to just keep trying. . So right now I am back in a flow. I am so happy to sit, I am so looking forward to it that I actually have to stop myself from wanting to do it 3 times a day. I feel connected to myself and to others and I feel that now familiar spaciousness inside. My meditation is one of the best parts of my day. . The meditation hasn’t changed. I have. I change around it, I change into it. I encounter and struggle and sometimes am able to let go of my resistances. . And maybe tomorrow, for no apparent reason, I’ll go back to thinking this is all crap and I have much better things to do. . But each time I sit and breathe, keep honoring my commitment, it becomes easier to find my way back. . So, this not really a story about meditation. It’s a story about commitment. For any of the small things or big things we want to achieve. Like art. Like living a healthier life. Like a new way of being. About not giving up, but not hating ourselves when we do, and just picking up and getting back to it, even if just for one excrutiating minute. . . . A big hug to my teacher @susan.piver 🧘‍♀️」4月17日 23時29分