ベス・ロッデンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ベス・ロッデンInstagram)「I turned my book into copyedit (!!!) on Friday. As soon as I closed my computer I wanted to cry, hide, celebrate, throw up, laugh, and collapse all at once. For the past nine (ten?) years, this book project has occupied a huge space in my brain. It’s always felt like a “one day” type of project. A hypothetical. A place for me to journal my thoughts, however big or small, and really, just have a space to direct my emotions and reactions and feelings. Even after other big milestones in the process were reached: first draft to the publisher, second draft, etc., completion has always felt a little theoretical. I naively thought that each step would sort of be like a pitch I would tick off, no need to really look backwards, only onwards and upwards, summit or plummet. But in reality, it has felt more like a relationship to return to rather than a project to complete. Revisiting things, revising how I feel about them, going back to therapy even when I thought I had “dealt” with things; it’s truly been a wild experience. I’m sure most “normal” people with “normal” jobs or objectives feel similar things all the time, but for sport and athletics, my accomplishments felt much less nuanced, a clear start and stop place, success or failure. At the start of this, I was expecting to be able to get to a point where I felt like I could wrap everything up with a neat little bow and be done. Ha. But in the end that’s not really what this book is. I know I’ll always be changing, going backwards and forwards, that’s just part of being a human. And I guess this book just captures some of those parts, which is exciting and terrifying (but still solidly on the side of terrifying 😱😅). I know I’m not “done” yet, but it is just starting to feel more and more real, yikes! // @outdoorresearch @yeti @metoliusclimbing @touchstoneclimbing @lasportivana @expedusa @bluewaterropes Pic: with Bodie for a brief vitamin D break, during the big push last week.」6月22日 1時41分