ジェーン・パークさんのインスタグラム動画 - (ジェーン・パークInstagram)「Connecting with this sn community has been invaluable. Total strangers have become amazing allies that not only have great advice but also message me at random times of the day just to check in. Some of them check in every day. I’ve shared deep conversations with some in the middle of the night when sleep eludes us. One conversation sticks with me like none I’ve had thus far. One mom reached out to me late one night and we got to sharing stories. While both our hearts were breaking and we were pouring each other’s hearts out, she mentioned something that I hadn’t heard from another sn mom. She had thought of suicide. Not only suicide, but taking her own sn child and her other child to the train tracks near their house and waiting for a train to come and take their lives. While my heart broke at this story, I felt relief that I was not the only mom feeling this way about their situation. When this shit storm started happening in early July, I couldn’t believe the state my life was in. And in all honesty I can’t believe it still. I took sleeping pills to sleep every night in the hospital (still do) and I felt disappointed EVERY DAMN DAY that I woke up alive. I woke up even more disappointed that my child was alive too. I wanted her to no longer be in pain and no longer be tortured by watching her suffer. I was gutted at the fact that I have to listen to my child cry all day while being pumped full of drugs every few hours. I selfishly wanted either her or I to go, but it couldn’t be both of us because of Pete. My loyal husband who would do anything for his girls. The thought of him losing one or both of us was even more treacherous than him dealing with this whole situation alone without my help. While I can’t speak for all other sn moms, I can guarantee that most have felt so low in their life that they once thought ending it all would have been a better option. And some probably still do. I hope other sn parents will confide in the fact that their thoughts and feelings are valid. I also hope that this message serves as a reminder to be kind to whoever you meet because you never know what’s happening below the surface. #specialneeds #suicideprevention」9月16日 8時28分