Ainsley Rodriguezのインスタグラム(ainsley) - 10月17日 02時01分

I share so many of my client transformations with you but here is MY transformation and the before picture wasn’t even my thinnest.
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I was severely underweight and still not feeling thin enough. *cue body dysmorphia*. I was terrified of carbs. I was obsessed with numbers. I would count every single thing I ate and made sure to go to the gym and burn every calorie and then some. The feeling of depression, inadequacy and struggles are the same no matter if you're overweight, underweight or the perfect weight. It's a feeling of shame and desperation. A feeling of anger and guilt.
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I would deprive myself. I would binge eat. I suffered from acne. I didn't get my period. I let food take hold of my emotions. I let food control my life. It took me 4 years to get to where I'm at today and it's NOT because I was doing everything right when I decided to change. It's because I still went through havoc and up and downs and spirals when I was trying to change.
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I was looking to fill this empty space inside of me and assumed when I just got thin enough, things would change for the better. I assumed if I looked a certain way it would resolve all those feelings and I would feel 'pretty' again. I was wrong.
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I was seeking validation and chasing this 'perfect' image which doesn't exist. I'm here to tell you that I am concrete evidence that there is no glamour in suffering. It wasn't a 'change' from one day to the next. It was a gradual process that involved me learning myself and becoming self-aware. I made a conscious decision to change and you have the choice too. If you're going through any of these feelings I encourage you to break the chains. Learn how to listen to your body rather than automatically run to food. It's ok to want and strive for a healthier body that carries less (or more) weight but HOW you get there is what makes the difference. ??
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