トレーシー・キスさんのインスタグラム写真 - (トレーシー・キスInstagram)「Rate my trackie out of 10 please? 💛 Do you feel enough? I mean that each way that you may interpret the question -do you FEEL emotion that is good more than bad, and do you feel ENOUGH of a person to meet the expectations of those around you? Not so long ago I never felt enough, my heart had gradually been suffocated through unfair treatment and neglect and my self esteem was weighted down by people thinking they were always above me, looking down upon me and being offended by all that I am and all that I do. I realised I’d been broken, the meat torn from my bones and my carcass tossed aside and unwanted. Why did I allow people to do this to me? I remember pleading “please stop hurting me, because one day this pain and upset I feel will become so great that I will switch off, unable to feel anything at all. I don’t want to be a ghost again again.” I’ve been a ghost twice in this life, twice when I’ve endured years upon years of suffering and abuse until I became so numb and empty inside that nothing could hurt me anymore; my body’s survival technique was to no longer cry, flinch or feel anything at all. At the most painful of times I never expected to be smiling today, I never expected to be laughing until my belly hurt, crying with joy instead of agony or feeling ENOUGH for being precisely who I am. I never thought waking up after a nights sleep with wild hair and ruffled eyebrows that I would be beautiful enough for a good morning kiss, wearing a tracksuit and bare feet without makeup that I would be loved and adored enough to not be cheated on by a girl far more girly than I or attractive. I never thought somebody would support MY dreams and allow me the freedom to be MYSELF. I never thought that somebody would see into my soul and recognise WHO I am and what I’m truly about instead of what others think I am by ignorantly judging my surface. I thought that I would be walking alone for the rest of my life, just relieved to be away from the pain of all that was wrong and the people who never deserved me. But YOU have proven me wrong, your love has brought my heart back to life and allowed me to feel again. Thank you for being YOU 🙏🏼 #iamenough #love #you」12月26日 18時45分