タリン・サザンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (タリン・サザンInstagram)「Some *small* BIG NEWS - Bob is already shrinking!!! About 50% since the first chemo. He’s kinda starting to look like the wicked witch after she starts to melt 😂 Image 1 was Bob when found in May. Image 2 is Bob three weeks ago, the day before Chemo (slightly smaller.) Image 3 ...today! Bob received the eviction notice and is moving out of town. I have to laugh about these ultrasound check-ups. While my many pregnant friends are sharing ultrasounds of their developing babies, I’m sharing ultrasounds of an ugly dark blob named Bob and finding relief in his increasingly eminent demise. While they hope to see a healthy baby, I’m hoping to kill mine. Biology has an exceptionally dark sense of humor. In other news, I’m on one of the more intense chemo protocols as far as toxicity/side effects, and after a few sleepless nights researching until 3am, this weekend I’d started to panic. What if the chemo doesn’t work? What if I could have found an immunotherapy trial without the long term toxicity instead? What if the chemo kills some of the cells but not all of them? What if I experience lifelong brain fog and neuropathy? What if I just can’t tolerate 4 more months of this? So I met with my oncologist to see about swapping one of my four drugs (from Taxotere to Taxol) and have it administered weekly instead of every 21 days. Even though there are more doses with this protocol, each dose is much lower, therefore the magnitude of side effects is less (and no risk of *permanent* hair loss like with Taxotere.) . I have to decide what to do before tomorrow, but regardless, I’m feeling immensely grateful that what I’m doing is WORKING. Also thank you @amandakeidan for the amazing #FuckBob gold necklace. With all this support, I really do feel I got this. ... #chemotherapy #her2positive #breastcancer #taxotere #taxol #herceptin #perjeta #carboplatin」7月3日 6時41分