アシュリー・ハートさんのインスタグラム写真 - (アシュリー・ハートInstagram)「Who else feels funky in the festive season? Here I'm dividing up our amazing @erinmckennasbakery cake over thanksgiving, with my beautiful niece in law, Wren. Looking back at this image deep reflections began to surface. Something I have often struggled with is how to divide my energy, to make sure everyone receives a slice of love and my time. It’s that one thing (and for those who know me, know this about me) that I still get caught up in. I have friends that feel like I’m not maintaining my end of the friendship.I feel anxious about how to be there for everyone, at the capacity that feels necessary or what would feel good to them and still uphold my own well-being and purpose driven aspirations in life. I’m one of those people that loves and needs their own time & also loves so many people. I have joked and truly wished, that if only there was 100 of me, I’d finally be able to show up for everyone, myself and the world, the way I want to. The Holiday season often exaggerates all of these feelings around not being enough, giving enough, having enough, being let down or letting others down. It feels extra challenging to stay balanced amongst it all to the point that I just want to run away, does anyone else ever feel this way? I know it's different for everyone, for some it may bring up the opposite- loneliness and lack of people, missing past lovers, old friends or family we don't speak to or our loved ones past, not being able to be home or afford gifts etc, regardless, this time of year brings up a lot of feelings, especially around lack. It can be crippling, even paralyzing. I'm realizing and practicing the mindset that it's not about these predicaments and first response reactions, even though they appear to feel and be so real. It may sound cliché but it's about love and our capacity to expand into more of it. I realize in my resistance, I end up begrudgingly wearing myself thin and show up to everything as best I can to make everyone else happy. However, from this space, I never make anyone actually feel connected and joyful and it sure as hell doesn't feel good for me. Continue in comments...」12月17日 14時13分