Catharine Mi-Sookさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Catharine Mi-SookInstagram)「“And maybe the bread, as I’ve always understood it, really is over... Our touchstone is changing color. Our criteria for earning a life, a living, are mutating like a virus that wants badly to stay alive. I text a friend, “I can’t find bread flour.” She lives in Iowa. “I can see the wheat,” she says, “growing in the field from outside my window.” I watch a video on how to harvest wheat. I can’t believe I have no machete. I can’t believe I spent so many hours begging universities to hire me, I forgot to learn how to separate the chaff from the wheat and gently grind. . If I had a machete I would use it to cut the mice, and the princess, and the king, and the stepmother, and the castle, and the wolf, and the mother, and the sons, free from their function so they could disappear into their own form. . But also I wanted an office with a number. I wanted a university ID. I wanted access to a fancy library and benefits and students and colleagues and travel money. I wanted the whole stupid kingdom. “And then what?” says my mother. “And then nothing,” I say as I jump off the very top of a fairy tale that has no place for me. “You’re better off,” says my mother. I look around. I’ve landed where I am.” -Sabrina Orah Mark, the Paris Review @sorahmark . . . As @sorahmark puts it in her magic of words and stories, I too have landed where I am because somewhere along the way a machete cut me free from the strings of inclination to keep up with job, status, circles, or whatever it is that yields the temporary veneer of worth which does not hold. Why I am doing this? For what? Those two questions help steer me and keep me from running back to an old familiar, from tying myself to strings I was cut free from. Day by day I am learning to walk in this landscape of congruency to the quiet resound within my own heart. The load is lighter. It was always meant to be. . . . Today’s journal is the Ajrak River Earth exquisitely handmade by @lotusblubookart. . . . #journaling #sabrinaorahmark #quotesoflife #lotusblubookart #bookbinding #handmadebook #handmadejournal #penmanship #dippencalligraphy #dippen #thedailywriting #journalinspiration #journallove #stationerylover #dailyjournal」10月7日 22時17分