Jessica Arevaloさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Jessica ArevaloInstagram)「❤️HONESTY POST❤️ - This morning I woke up at 114 pounds and took these pictures which I dreaded because the truth is these last couple of months have been the hardest of my life with being in the ICU for @chris_elkins & @flexythefighter. I normally don’t let things get in the way of my training and nutrition but this affected me greatly because of the 24/7 care @flexythefighter needed up until this point. I was clinically diagnosed as depressed last week at the doctors and it was hard to even hear that but I knew my lack of interest in things and not wanting to get out of bed was not ok. I’m going to start getting counseling this week for it. - - I wanted to open up about something I have struggled with my entire career in the fitness industry. I am normally an all in or all out kind of person and it’s very hard for me to find balance and it’s something I struggle with daily. I started my journey in 2010 competing in now 35 shows and I think that has a lot to do with why it’s hard for me to accept my body as ever being good enough. I can tell you that looking at these photos, in my opinion I’m out of shape for my standards and I never look at myself in the mirror if I’m not “shredded” because I hate what I see. - - I’ve been to the gym a total of 10 x in the last 2.5 months and haven’t counted one calorie because I figure if I’m not giving it my all what’s the point and then I feel lost. But that’s where I’m wrong because I need to find a balance. - - If you’ve followed my journey you know I’m either “shredded” and hardcore or I’m eating whatever I want and not training there’s no in between and I know that’s not healthy. I want you all to know that no matter where you are at in your fitness journey everyone struggles and you’re not alone. No one is perfect but we can all strive to be the best version of ourselves. - - Today I woke up and felt more motivated then ever before and this will be my millionth try at giving this fitness thing a go and finding balance. We must never give up and keep fighting OVER and OVER again until we reach our true potential and happiness. - Tag someone that needs to hear this message🙏🏼❤️」1月7日 5時28分