ギャランス・ドレのインスタグラム(garancedore) - 6月21日 00時11分
When I left New York more than two years ago, I thought I’d miss it so much. The plan was to be bicoastal. To keep a place in the city and jet back and forth. .
YEAH RIGHT.
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The “pied-a-terre in the city” dream fell through fast. Keeping an flat is not only money, it’s also something you have to look after, and when you leave you have to empty the fridge else you come back and winter has come, and millions of details I didn’t feel like taking care of. So I dropped the apartment, and I stay at a hotel. .
The bicoastal-jetting-back-and-forth dream crumbled quite fast too. Even though I am now a Diamond member on Delta (lol) I had to reframe the whole thing if I didn’t want to exhaust myself & become insane. I just don’t know how people who live in two places do. I admire it, but I can’t. My team and I learned to work with Skype and FaceTime and I go to NYC less, but better.
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As the true New Yorker I was when I dreamed up these things, I wanted to pack it up hard: work, work, work + friends + exhibitions, new stores, restaurants. .
SURE. .
After doing that a couple times an planning 20 hrs long days, with diners every night, I realized I was crazy. If you really want to work work work, you can’t also play play play. I would come back to LA a zombie, it would take me a whole other week to recuperate and then I’d have to start packing to go back again.
So I started to say “I’m sorry I can’t” to friends and in the beginning I wouldn’t even post on IG I was there because I didn’t want people to think I was there and didn’t want to see them - and then I let go, I know most of them understand. .
So now you can sometimes catch me in NYC, in my hotel room, in bed at 8pm 😊
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Now - do I miss New York? Of course I do. Like you miss an ex. Like, I will always love you but it’s not working anymore... I miss walking, I miss how everything is close and how you can do so much in one day. Sometimes I miss the grit. And how close it it to Europe.
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But when I left I thought NYC was the center of the world and that my life would always in some way revolve around it. That has changed too - my life revolves... around me - wherever I am.
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Still happy to go back next week!!!
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emma091777
C’est quand même fou ces influenceuses qui infusent des visions mainstream de « l’ultra réussite cool » mais qui dans le fond sont des machines de marketing ultra rodées, qui exercent des métiers sans sens, ne participent à aucune forme d’utilité sociale (de la désutilité plutôt !), vendant du luxe et des rêves vides de valeurs. Vive les infirmières, les enseignantes, les sages-femmes, les scientifiques, les politiciennes, les couturières, etc. mais hélas notre système n’a pas choisi de les mettre au premier plan de votre forme de « réussite ». Navrant.
68munichmoon
@danaoutso Thank you so much! I have the exact same problem with her. And when she talks about how much she is working I wonder what really? She let's other girls manage her company. She is not working on anything we as readers can have a grip on and most annoyingly she orbits all the time just around herself: Ouhhh how am I feeling today and might there not be an issue still deep in me I can drown in. Can I eat sugar, drink coffee and what could it do to me if I just lay down and feel puls...
danaoutso
and then, I started following you here, cause I love your pictures and I find you extremely talented, but still, I keep having the same feeling...you are not relatable any more...(I'm reading you while I'm stuck in the Parisian rer, where it's hot and sticky, finishing my job that doesn't even pay my rent!). I don't know to whom you refer any more...Yes, I guess it's soooooo horrible not being able to be bicoastal !yeah....Third world problems....
feleciastarr7
Such a thoughtful and honest post ? I left NYC after more than a decade. My desire was to immerse myself in nature. I moved to the CO mountains and a new wonderful adventure. Now I’m at the beach due to family obligations. And agree, travel for work and friends can be exciting and exhausting. It’s necessary to take time for yourself and reflect. Then I find my center and peace no matter where I am. I try to grow where I’m planted ???
agnes.mallet
Ah! The ambition at first, true and genuine and then the energy or absence of thereof slowly catching up to you... you’ll always have NYC, it never sleeps and it will always be there for you with open arms, a smile and something to excite you... just like an ex. The end of a relationship should never be the end of a friendship, if it started on that foundation, it will always be. Here’s to home everywhere you go. #here??now
veryjoelle
So many gold nuggets in what you wrote, especially that « work, work, work » and « play, play, play » part. I too tend to want it all, but it’s just not humanly possible. By wanting to do it all, you’re just going to end up burning yourself out. It’s a long a learning curve, but reading it from someone with your background and professional achievements, it’s really inspiring ?
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