のインスタグラム(helen_jannesonbense) - 11月27日 17時07分
Wishing my dear son Jacob a Happy 10th Birthday today ???✨
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It’s such a blessing to be his mother. He is my mirror, always teaching me about myself. I’ve learnt the fine art of patience, and how to deeply embrace and accept who I am....all my sensitivities and all my eccentricities. He is my wild child, with the strongest of wills, a brilliant mind that always questions and thinks outside the box and never ever gives up. He always challenges me to be my best and has been a fighter since the moment of conception. He is my miracle baby. Even against all medical odds he made it into this world healthy and strong and has brought more love into my heart than I ever could have imagined. I am so grateful for the honour of being his mother. Happy birthday my Jakey bear ?
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I know there are a lot of women who go through challenging pregnancies and births and you are not alone. On this day I always remember what I endured to get here. I always release a little more of the pain as I focus on how lucky I am he is here with me. .
I’ve never fully shared this story here but it feels like it’s time and maybe, I hope, it will help someone else who has been through something similar.
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From early in my pregnancy, around 11 weeks, I hemorrhaged and thought I was having a miscarriage. Rushed to hospital they said he wouldn’t make it past 16 weeks and I needed to prepare myself for the eventual loss. Multiples times over the next few weeks I was rushed to hospital with more hemorrhages and each time he held on. By 20 weeks they said let’s prepare for the possibility of an early birth and likely disability. It went on this way until 38 weeks, each day we counted our blessings he was still hanging on and each day we were so scared it would be the last ? it was the loneliest and most painful time in my life, no matter how much love and support was around me, it was all happening within me and I felt so helpless. I learnt to trust my body again, to focus my thoughts on what was working. To find gratitude within it all. Amongst all the fear and pain this is where I found my peace. And I hope anyone else going through this will too ?? Sending so much love ✨? ? @bobbybense
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