テス・ホリデーさんのインスタグラム写真 - (テス・ホリデーInstagram)「“You’re the queen of helping everyone around you but yourself.” my therapist told me this year (thanks Anna!) & it woke me the fuck up. I looked around & didn’t even recognize the world I had created, & knew I needed to change that. 2020 was the year that I started to really heal. Cliché, yea, I’m aware. I mourned the sudden loss of my sweet grandmother & was reminded that none of us are promised tomorrow. I released parts of myself, relationships and behaviors that weighed heavy on me like an anchor for years. Grief, trauma & the aftermaths of abuse are things as a society we don’t talk about enough. For years I felt like I was trapped under ice, & I could see my loved ones standing above me, trying to help me, but I couldn’t get to them. I had to shut down so many parts of myself just to get through each day. I was tired of hurting, of feeling bitter & mean. I had to take a really hard look at what no longer served me & what part I played to attract & sustain those energies in my life. I wanted different for myself and realized nothing would change if I didn’t first. 2020 brought me a lot of blessings, too. I got to be on the cover of @parents magazine with my boys this year. Y’all witnessed the full circle moment of my @effyourbeautystandards line dropping with @fashiontofigure & the truly diverse campaign we created that was the visual manifestation of the ideals I have always stood for, and we raised money for @trevorproject too. My @charlottestoneshoes collab came out as well & I got to design my dream shoes. Not to mention all the wonderful things coming next year that I’ve been working so hard on. I’m grateful to no longer wake up in dread everyday. To have a home that is truly my own where I feel at peace and safe. I have spent more quality time with my kids than ever before which I will never take for granted. I reconnected with my father after almost a decade of estrangement, & we have begun the journey of healing together. It’s been such a source of unexpected joy & support that I didn’t even realize I was missing from soul. I started to attract better & better people in my life who love me for who I truly am. (Continued in comments) ✨」1月1日 5時33分