アラナ・ニコルズさんのインスタグラム写真 - (アラナ・ニコルズInstagram)「Any one else having full on adult melt downs? 🙋🏻‍♀️😭 Oh man, yesterday was hard. Not in a “my legs haven’t worked for 20 years” kinda way. It was a "big emotions, I miss my grandma, I feel lonely in quarantine, I wish my sisters lived closer, struggle finding purpose outside of motherhood/how to a get more active for my mental health” kinda way. It was a LOT. . I didn’t so much “celebrate” the 20 year anniversary of my accident aka my “Alive Day” yesterday. I mostly cried. I didn’t expect it but, dang, I really miss my Grandma. That’s grief, it shows up unexpectedly and sucker punches you right in the heart. . For the first time I thought vividly about my grandmas experience when I woke up in the ICU after I over-rotated a backflip, landed on a rock and became paralyzed at 17. She was the one by my bed side. I remember waking up so high and confused that I was thanking the doctor profusely to the point the my gramma got a little embarrassed🤣. I thought about how scared and unsure she must have felt but also how stoic she always was in hard situations. . We didn’t share big emotions or have hard conversations but there was an understanding that we were “in it” together and that was enough. She passed away this past July and I guess that void just felt so much bigger on the anniversary of my accident yesterday, something that bonded us so closely. . All that to say, I’m grateful for the people that I’ve been “in it” with over the past 20 years of wheelin. At the beginning it was my Grandma and Grandpa, my mom, brother and sisters. My aunt and cousins, my family. And throughout the years of traveling the country and the world it was my extended Ohana...the wheelchair basketball community, my alpine ski coaches, my surfing friends and most recently my @teamtoyota fam. And now, in the midst of a global pandemic it’s my lil family, @roytuscany and lil Gunnar. . This is a hard time and I just want to encourage everyone to be thankful for the people you are “in it” with, even when they drive you crazy. Lean on your people, be strong when you can and reach out when you need some love and know that 20 years from now we’ll all look back, grateful for our people. 🙏」11月21日 7時50分