ベス・ロッデンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ベス・ロッデンInstagram)「When I was 19, my friend and I spoke to an editor at a climbing magazine about doing an article covering eating issues in climbing. I had just gained ten pounds in the aftermath of my last X-Games comp, I was scared that hard climbing for me was over. When it came time to commit to the article and speaking openly about my struggles with food, I backed out. I was too scared, nervous, and even embarrassed to admit to what I was doing. I didn't want a label attached to me that held so much weight and negativity in my view. Sadly, I also didn't think that what I was doing was *that* bad. This was in the late 90's, when sport climbing was in its heyday and the thin-to-win era was in full force. It was the unspoken elephant at every competition. I don't know if there's any one thing that could have been said to my stubborn teenage self to change my distorted perspective on a healthy body. Honestly, I mainly felt empowered by severely limiting what I put into my body. That sounds so sad to me now but it's true. Anytime anyone said something to me, I felt they were just jealous that I had more control and discipline than they did. I do know that representation matters. It took years of altering what I saw and heard for my own attitudes to change. Disordered eating and body image issues are pervasive in our community. But these problems only exist when they stay in the shadows. I wish I could have seen vulnerability as the strength and force I know it to be today when I was a tiny, 85 pound teenager. I might have committed to doing that article. I don't know how I would have changed if it published because I still felt so lost and beholden to the success at all costs dialogue that was on repeat in my head. But, I do know that if I would have heard or seen people talking openly about eating disorders and body image issues, it would have at least planted a seed. And sometimes, that's all you need. Pics: Me climbing in Fontainebleau this year and at the X-Games in San Diego at my thinnest // @outdoorresearch @metoliusclimbing @touchstoneclimbing @bluewaterropes @ospreypacks @skinourishment @clifbar @lasportivana」2月11日 2時37分