ベス・ロッデンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ベス・ロッデンInstagram)「A few years ago I worked on an article for @outsidemagazine that was the first time I talked publicly about things that were vulnerable or shameful for me. But the thing I was scared of most was the photo shoot. I was two and a half years postpartum and at least fifteen pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. I was embarrassed and ashamed that I hadn't been disciplined enough to get my body back. Even my "normal" friends had done so after a few months. My inner critic raged. I made a plan to go on one of those high fat fasting diets. At checkout, Theo asked why I wasn't buying our favorite fruit. It took me by surprise, since it felt natural to manipulate my eating and body for performance and self worth. "Mom has to eat a certain way, for my work, to make me feel good..." As I was trailing on I could see the perplexity in his face. I stopped my little sermon and realized I was planting a dangerous seed. I grabbed fruit and checked out without the diet food. I suppose I could have just done the diet on my own, but I knew that wasn't the transformation that needed to happen. I never lost that weight before the photoshoot. It was winter and I wore a down jacket and could hide my body. I felt relief in that. Looking back, I wasn't ready anyways. That took another few years of changing my own inner dialogue and feeling worthy outside of a skinny body and sending a hard route. But taking small steps have all led to the greatest transformation in my life and career. Thanks everyone for the kind words and posting your own stories around these topics over the past few weeks. It’s been the change we all want to see. Amazing what some self love can do ❤️ Pics: Climbing in Yosemite this fall and the @outsidemagazine photo shoot by @trittscamera 🙏 @outdoorresearch @metoliusclimbing @touchstoneclimbing @bluewaterropes @ospreypacks @skinourishment @clifbar @lasportivana #orambassador」11月21日 2時28分