ファイン・フレンジーのインスタグラム(alisonsudol) - 10月9日 13時02分

It’s easy for me to say to someone else, things like “some days will be easier than others, it’s all ok, just be loving to yourself and accept that where you are right now is good enough...” and so on, but much harder to take in, when it’s said to me. I’m noticing this. I am on my first day of an Ayurvedic program, which feels quite beautiful and exciting, and I already feel like I am nourishing myself in a way I haven’t really ever known how to do. I cleaned out gross drawers today and did a bunch of stuff I’ve been avoiding, kept a small creature alive, saw a dear friend and went to a really lovely Canadian Thanksgiving (happy Thanksgiving, friendly Canadians!) and with every step, from loved ones and strangers alike, I’ve been getting the message “it’s ok, be where you are, feel it....” / this message is what i keep leaning toward, as waves of panic rise for no apparent reason. these damn waves i am so familiar with. for so long, i tried to pretend they didn’t exist... but they do. these waves have wrecked so many nights, mornings, weeks, months... they have been coming up random and hard today, and it’s been challenging, especially when I actually think in general I’m actually doing pretty well. Trying to find space for this to be a part of the process and sit with it. I am grateful for the routines I have, the candles I burn, the people I love that I can turn to, the practices I am learning, oh so wonderful CBD and the pill I can take when the waves just won’t relent. And for this little face. I guess I just wanted to pass on the message, really, in case no one’s told you today and you need to hear it - these may be waves you live with, but they are not who you are. they are hard to stay steady through, but just like waves, they come and they go. Wherever you find yourself, it’s ok. Keep doing the best you can, and know you’re not alone. Sending love and light to you.
now that I’ve written all that out and had a good healthy cry, i feel so much better and now am going to pass out. PS check out the fancy clown eye I made writing this??‍?(i don’t like the clown emoji ?((creepy)) so used a welder instead) hugs ❤️ x #mentalhealth

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