ファイン・フレンジーさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ファイン・フレンジーInstagram)「“people say that time will sort me out / drowning in tomorrows” ~ the clearing. one of the trippiest things about writing songs is that they become little time capsules for your life. if you’re lucky, you catch a very specific moment with a net of words, snuggle it into a nest of instruments woven by melody, and pin it down into lasting form as truthfully as you can with microphones cables, machines, praying that you haven’t f***ed it in the process. I am so grateful to have caught this moment in time this way. I remember writing the words, walking along tiny country lanes in Wales with Gertie near the studio, praying a car wouldn’t come so I wouldn’t have to climb into a hedge with a dog on my back, puffy-eyed but calm. I was grieving, yes, but because I had a space to pour that sadness into, an excuse, a purpose for peeling the layers apart, the grief felt strangely alive. life-giving, even. writing + recording this music with @chrishyson @alexhainesmusic + @lloydhaines with @superstaralex90 capturing it was full of joy - even though I cried so much I also laughed till I nearly peed myself… Often. Grief earlier in my life had always left me disembodied, disassociated, numb, lost, looking for a way out- that was all there, looming, but by exploring the loss through music, I could suddenly see it, and feel it in all its fullness… which hurt less, strangely, after the initial sting, than years of frozen avoidance. i listen to this song and I remember the crossroads, the thick darkness pierced by the sheer willingness to look into it. @federiconessi took these photos, and again, he managed to catch the ephemeral- how tempting it is to leave your body when the pain is too much to bear. To revisit these now, with my ripe, heavy belly making it almost impossible to find a comfortable seated position, fills me with deep gratitude for the journey that has led me here, for the people that have walked along it with me and the tomorrows that didn’t drown anything except a part of me that needed go anyways- the part that would leave when things got too much. making space for new life to enter. the clearing.」6月6日 21時32分