レイチェル・ブレイセンのインスタグラム(yoga_girl) - 10月15日 22時02分
I woke up angry.
It’s funny, because in my “normal” day-to-day I wouldn’t notice. I’d just feel like I’d woken up on the wrong side of the bed. My day would begin and tiny things would annoy me; I’d be impatient and frustrated, and maybe even stay in an agitated mood all day.
These days, getting up at 5am and checking in deeply with myself first thing, my morning plays out differently. I rose feeling like crap and the moment I sat down, closed my eyes and placed my hands to my heart I felt it. I didn’t wake up on the wrong side of the bed. I’m just fucking pissed.
Yesterday, two things happened. One; I found out that someone I’m friendly with speaks badly about me behind my back but pretends to be all sweet when I see her. Two; one of my students in class yesterday told me she had an awful experience getting a cab to the studio. When the driver found out she was going to Island Yoga he didn’t want to take her, tried to get her to go to another studio, and spoke horrible things about me the entire way there.
Yesterday, I felt fine. “How wonderful”, I thought. “I’ve transcended it all”.
Well, turns out, I haven’t. I just hadn’t metabolized it yet. And this morning I woke up angry.
So instead of sitting quietly in meditation or practicing yoga, this morning I spent the first 20 minutes of my day RAGE DANCING. I turned on the most intense music I could fins and just went totally berserk. At one point I found myself singing along to the lyrics but replacing all the words with FUCK YOU. Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU fuck it all fuck this shit fuck fuck fuck. Fuck you! The best words in the English language. Rage dancing felt so good.
The music ended. I’d gone from pissed off to feeling clear, calm, strong. Will be letting that friend go, and compile a list of companies we no longer work with or recommend to share with the world. I have honest people in my life, and there are other taxi companies for us to work with. Easy does it.
At the end of it all, I sat down at my computer and wrote this. The moment is over. The anger is gone.
Now, ready for my yoga practice. And so ready for this day.
#RAGEDANCE
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