FOLKさんのインスタグラム写真 - (FOLKInstagram)「A long time ago I just kinda gave up. I caved to the pressure of, well, everything. I became incredibly jaded and disinterested in everything. I no longer knew what brought me joy and I became a shell of my former self. I no longer had a voice of my own. I simply went along with whatever anyone said because I didn’t believe in myself or feel like I could do anything right. In my mind I was a failure and no one should have to deal with me or my baggage. My personal tragedy was right up there with Elizabeth Taylor’s and Ruth Roboline. Over time I did things I didn’t enjoy and I spent a lot of time simply doing nothing. There is such a numbness to the endless scroll of Facebook and Instagram. The kind where your eyes go out of focus and you just scroll to fill the time. I’d occasionally do work ‘cause I had bills to pay, but I didn’t do anything that I was proud of, that I wanted to share, or that I wanted to grow anything. If I did anything I was remotely proud of I’d self sabotage with self doubt or I’d be so convinced that it would fail that I’d simply give up before I ever started. It’s not that I had a long list of failures, but I did have a couple that in my mind over shadowed my successes and I constantly feel another failure was just around the river-bend or that if it did go well something from the past would come forth to ruin the present. I’m now convinced I manifested my own failures because I was terrified of succeeding. Over time and thanks to a few friends that truly believed in me my spark started to return. I found myself feeling inspired again. I still wasn’t confident. I’m not quite sure I’m confident yet. I’m hopeful that’ll return over time. I found myself engaging in conversations about business and passion and the things I’d loved in a past life. I was suddenly fueled by the idea of erasing my failures by continuing on. I was fueled by the idea of reconnecting with my past life. I thank those from the past life for making me feel like I could be great...greater than I’d ever been. The shame of failure suddenly felt more like lessons learned and lessons to drive me forward. || Continued in comments...」5月23日 0時22分