ニーナ・メルセデスのインスタグラム(lifewithmariza) - 4月3日 08時10分

??‍♀️Have you ever been through something and felt like “I would rather die right now, I just don’t think I could survive this” what was it? Comment below ??
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When my parents pass died within two months of each other I was positive I couldn’t go on. After they passed it was a downward motion for a very long time. I was angry and destructive I contemplated suicide for many selfish reasons of my own but I couldn’t do that to my kids. Instead I did self destructive things to almost punish myself but you would never know from the outside, I always “looked” fine. On the inside though I was killing myself, I did this for YEARS. While living that way other things kept piling on and I had a few moments of feeling so done. I remember driving my car in the middle of the night crying feeling completely overwhelmed with life and I almost ended it. I honestly feel I have a guardian angel though maybe my parents who saved me from myself in those moments.
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I look back on all that now a different person with a completely different life. A life I never imagined for myself and I laugh at how crazy I was to think for a second those things could possibly end me. When your in the storm it feels unbearable but once it passes you realize the storm made you stronger. Maybe even ripped some layers off you so you can grow into a new person. The storm washed you in a way but you won’t see it till it’s over. You have to make it through those hard times to get the gift that god has in front of you. God gives you enough strength for the day ahead of you, but it’s up to you to believe you carry that strength inside you. I’ve had moments I didn’t think I could make it through that taught me so much and put me in a position to NOW help others. Everything that I’ve been through was for a reason. If I had given up back then I wouldn’t be here living this extraordinary life I have now. Looking at this photo I feel so blessed.
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No matter what your going through or what you have been through. I swear the life ahead of you is nothing you could ever imagine. It doesn’t rain forever, the storm will pass so learn to dance in the rain and know that the sun is coming my love. ❤️

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