Made of stars....?✨ • • • Fluorescent gouache paint is awesome ?~ An idea I had around last year trying to cope with my heart surgery that left me with a huge, nasty-looking scar. A lot of you guys probably already know about this, I think I talk about it a lot...a little too much sometimes perhaps, sorry. Some of you guys have DM'd me about this, asking about how or why I got my surgeries, so... ⭐️ ⭐️ Read on if you're curious and don't know what I'm talking about ?. ⭐️ Last year I was diagnosed with Mitral Stenosis, where my mitral heart valve was too small and wasn't opening and closing properly, causing the blood in my left heart chamber to regurgitate back into my lungs because the opening was too small to let enough blood to flow to the next chamber. I was having a lot of trouble breathing every time I walked at that time. So sometime around this time last year, I had my first heart surgery. Of course, I had 2 more within the next two months (my mechanical valve fell off due to complications that'll take too long to explain), after which I felt completely just numb. Though at this point, I was trying to come to terms with the fact that I have a ~20cm long (9inches) scar on my chest. It was really quite... disheartening, to say the least, to have such a large and scary looking scar that looks so angry red and bumpy. I started drawing these girls with things coming out of a rip in their chest to kind of cope with it, really, but now I'm starting to like this concept. I've seen people physically flinch or cringe a little when they see my scar, but I'm dealing with it slowly. I guess the worse thing is the meds I'll have to be on for the rest of my life to regulate my blood clotting rates and the fact that it's probably extremely dangerous for me to have a child (for both me and the child). So yeah. That's all. I still kind of feel uncomfortable when I see hospital wards but it's getting better cause I'm not breaking out in cold sweats when I watch hospital scenes on tv anymore so yay!! If you got this far, this is the Instagram word limit lol. You're amazing and thank you for reading. ?~ sorry for rambling. #inktober2016 #inktober

qinniartさん(@qinniart)が投稿した動画 - 2016/10/10 15:19:16