ジェイコブ・ホワイトサイズさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ジェイコブ・ホワイトサイズInstagram)「hey, i know it’s been awhile.. i knew 2023 was going to be a difficult year, but it’s been a lot harder than i anticipated. at the end of 2022 i felt in my gut the majority of the relationships i had in my life aside from my girlfriend (who i love so very much) were one sided. i said to myself going into next year i need to stop fighting so hard to keep people in my life who would be fine without me, and that’s exactly what i did. it got quiet and it got quiet FAST. the loneliness was something i thought i was better prepared for, but i was wrong. i forfeited the majority of my childhood to chase a dream, and it felt worth it during that time having so many people who always wanted to be around me and feeling so loved and supported through it all. i never thought almost a decade later that i would hardly speak to any of those people anymore. it’s easy to be around people when they’re at the highest points of their life, but i never anticipated all those same people disappearing when things got hard for me. the physical battles i’ve fought with myself being diagnosed with crohn’s disease and the mental battle with depression has felt impossible at times, and i promise you i would not be here right now if i didn’t have abby. she’s been one of the only people here for me at every single high and low point, and I KNOW i haven’t been easy to deal with. for those still reading who have messaged me asking if i’m okay, i’m not! but i’m getting better! and i will finish this year with a better understanding of myself and my future, i love you guys and i promise i will slowly become more active again.」8月19日 9時03分