アダム・シャンクマンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (アダム・シャンクマンInstagram)「7 years ago I made the scariest decision of my life. I had been drinking and using substances since I was 15 years old without stopping. For the lions share of those years, it was great fun, seemingly harmless and recreational. Then, at some point, things turned. I had no coping skills for dealing with stress other then to numb and check out. I was no longer having fun. I was no longer just “chilling” or “partying” or “blowing off steam”. I was using, plain and simple, and I couldn’t stop because stopping would mean I had zero tools to cope with stress, anxiety, Adrenalin spikes, failure, success, rejection, confrontation, or any challenges I had ever faced, and drinking and using was not just what I did, it was who I was because without it, I had no relief. I had no safe specs. I didn’t know how to live. When the day came that I realized I preferred obliteration to life, and a was beginning to speed up the process of slow suicide, and all consuming darkness, I found a rehab, and with no prompting, checked myself in and began the greatest most meaningful and rewarding journey of my life. Now, I live life on life’s terms and don’t try to control anything other then how I approach any situation, which I do thoughtfully and calmly. I experience a peace I never knew I could have, and live a life that i no longer find chaotic because I no longer cause any additional chaos. I accept the world I live in and who I am and react to it all now with the love and support of those that love and support me. I continue to build my self esteem by performing esteemable acts. I reach out for help, since I literally can’t fix everything, and offer help whenever and wherever I am called to do so, and beyond. I am a better son, friend, partner, and man then I could have ever hoped to be, which does not make me perfect (perfect is not a thing by the way); it makes me human and humane. I will never be able to say thank you enough to those who have been there for me along this ride, and although I still do this one day at a time, at least now I see time as my friend and partner, snd whatever happens tomorrow, will be. For now, I am grateful, more so then I can express. I am sober」12月8日 8時32分