Andrew Knappさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Andrew KnappInstagram)「Hey, I want to tell you something that I don’t want to talk about. Today marks two months since I’ve had a drink. This may not sound like much, but I’m extremely proud of myself, and every clear breath I take thanks me for making this choice. I stopped drinking on my birthday so that next year I can retroactively gift myself a year of clarity. I can’t wait to give this to myself. Year after year I avoid celebrating my birthday because I’ve felt I wasn’t worth the celebration, next year I’d like to feel like I’m worth it. For me, drinking was a coping mechanism and an escape from uncomfortable feelings. Here’s some observations: I’m less fun. I’m definitely 200% less fun as I figure out how to be a person in social situations, as someone who struggles deeply with social anxiety. I’m showing up for myself. Of course, drinking is one of a thousand other piece, but it grants me clarity and supports me with the presence I need to observe my patterns and work through them. I’m showing up for others. Treating myself poorly was dishonouring any gift that was given to me. A friend’s trust, a shared space, or the boundless support I’ve been given in this life. Now more than ever I’m here for it, and that feels like true gratitude. I’m with the dogs more. I wake up between 6 and 7, and I’m not groggy. Wow. So I’ve been getting out with the dogs more than ever. It’s like free therapy. I love myself more. Not like “You’re so great”, but more like “I respect you so I’m going to treat you well”. It’s amazing how one act of radical self-love could trigger others. I’m saving money. The alcohol industry is a trillion dollar industry worldwide. No surprise. Anyway, I wanted to share that. This isn’t self-congratulatory or virtue signalling or attention seeking, but simply marking a milestone. Actually it’s somewhat self-congratulatory. And even though it may not sound like a big deal, for me it’s huge. Someone told me “you’ll feel like you have a superpower after 3 months” so I’m really hoping I get telepathy. 📸: @analogwetdream」7月25日 4時43分