クリスティ・ルーカジアックさんのインスタグラム写真 - (クリスティ・ルーカジアックInstagram)「Fifty shades of cray. 🖤 (I’ve been called much worse, by the way) ⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ Does the number on the scale or in your jeans make you crazy? 🙋🏼‍♀️ It has made me nuts for YEARS. I have been “fat”, I have been “skinny”, I have had the third most popular Google search of me be “Christi lukasiak pregnant” (and just to be clear, I wasn’t pregnant, I was just eating my feelings. I was STRESSED, people) 😖⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ In 2016, I was in such a bad place. I was eating 5000+ calories a day, walking up stairs made me winded and I was ashamed to look in the mirror. One day, I braved the scale and I weighed more than when I was pregnant and reality hit me dead in the face. I had to make changes simply for my physical AND mental health. (I included a pic from my heaviest time and this KILLED me to post. But if this helps one person, then it’s worth it.) 💗⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ I went to a weight loss clinic and started the HCG-diet, which is highly controversial, but I didn’t care. I was willing to go to extremes. I gradually started working out, lost over 60 pounds and became obsessed with the numbers, but this, too, was an unhealthy extreme. 😞 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ Eventually, I stopped working out. I gained back some of the weight. I don’t eat super healthy, but I’m not overeating at every meal. However, I miss the way I FELT when I was working out. I had so much energy and accomplished so much. I got my best ideas while I was exercising and was so mentally clear. I felt happier. 😊 (I’ve heard that exercise gives you endorphins and endorphins make you happy 🙃)⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ For 2020, I made a promise to myself. I am going to sweat every day. I am not going to be obsessed with the scale and the sizes, but rather the way I feel. I am going to pat myself on the back for walking a mile, instead of beating myself up for not running it. I am going to stop bitching about something I absolutely have the power to change. Who’s with me?? 🙋🏼‍♀️⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ If you’re into this type of #realtalk, you should totally check out my private Facebook group. This is exactly the kind of thing we’re talking about over there and we would love to have you. Link in bio. 👆🏻⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ 📸: @laurenreneephoto」1月8日 8時13分