カリディー・イングリッシュのインスタグラム(carideeenglish) - 6月29日 12時26分

I packed up my home in LA in May, put everything in storage there, to go spend the summer in North Dakota with my family. I’ve been in my career for 15 years, and it’s been a dream.

Then I found myself, attaching my career to my identity. I was in such a dream, I couldn’t wake to reality. Meaning when something went wrong, or I didn’t get a role or a job, I felt there was something in me that was expiring. I got out of a long term relationship, and realized I lost myself at the end in that too. Which I hold no regrets.
I put my whole heart into anything or anyone I take on, which works for me most of the time. Loyalty lives in my lungs.
But the loyalty to who I am outside of the love of my career or a relationship, was being cheated.

I created who I thought I should be, and put no thought into who I became, when I wasn’t looking.

I am an artist, and look forward to going back to Los Angeles at the end of the summer, but right now, with legs that don’t get shaved as often, high heels that are collecting dust, and a belly full of BBQ, laughter, jack, I know home is a place you return to with in yourself.
Im slowly decorating the dream home that I want to live inside me. Somewhere that I feel safe, secure and can always return to.

Just thought I would write this down. I hope to be able to continue to be a little bit more authentic on here.. with y’all.

What do you do, to get back home? I’d love your advice 🙏🏼🥰

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leenieobrien I soak up being by myself when I feel lost and need to come back to myself. I realize I always have the answers within me. I learned this when I took a trip to Mexico all by myself and learned that the juxtaposition of being by myself gave me clarity as I was always going and going. I didn’t sit down and ask myself, I just let myself “be” and enjoy the moment. I like to meditate in the bathtub with candles and some wine. I find that self care is so important. I carve this out daily to balance out all the hustle and bustle around me daily. Enjoy ND and being home. You’ll find that you were always home within yourself. You just need to get reacquainted. Be vulnerable. Sit in the uncomfortable and embrace it. Growth comes from those moments. You are strong enough to work through anything. Sleep. Get some rest.... those would be my ideas. Sending you love, peace and light. 💖🌸❤️

stonefoxxsam Good for you, girl! I’m on that same tip 💯 I thought as an artist, staying in LA was the best choice for my career. But I’ve been struggling for way too long- so long, that that simple, intrinsic passion and light that gives me purpose, seems somehow dimmed. I feel lost. When I was in Hawaii a week ago, I felt alive in a way I haven’t in a long, long time. I found a job there, and came back to LA feeling my spirit revived. I knew I had to make the move, at least for the summer... I hope you find those things you know will feed your soul and rejuvenate you the way you need. Would love to hear about your process when the time is right. Until then, sweet blessings to you, sweet spirit ✨💋

isleofskyeindia You’re an inspiration. I can so totally relate with your story and still making my way back to reality. The similarities in your experience are so true for me too. Thanks for sharing. You’re awesome. For me it’s nature, friends, animals (so healing) creativity; writing, art, photography and trying to believe in myself again - how, I’m working it out, maybe some therapy I’m seeking out this week to get over a few things you mentioned but also PTSD I have from being pulled unconscious and not breathing from a swimming pool and a car accident three months ago. We’ll both get there xxx

kayaroxowow Carideeeeeee Had I known!!!!!! ?? I live in Small town South Dakota (Corn Palace Land) I spent summers here with my Dad and a Tv with Cable in my room. Aka binge watching shows I was never allowed to watch. Well 17 year old me had no idea anyone else on planet earth had Psoriasis until I saw you. Literally Life changing. So... while you’re busy trying to get back to your authentic self, just know you taught Me to live Authentically in my Skin. ?❤️?

missriah_rodriguez Recently did the same....moved back my marriage ended. Hadn’t been back home in 5 years. And I too realized I lost myself. I’ve been trying to reconnect with old friends and family which will always make me feel better- like a I’m a part of something. I’ve also been doing things on my own simply because I can and want to. It has helped me rediscover the things I used to love and myself! Thank you for sharing this!

redheadedanarchy You know, I feel you on this. I'm visiting my parents for just a week. And I'm coming alive. The mountains bring back something inside the soul. Thisis my retreat. My husband is in the Marines, and we're getting stationed in Japan for 3 yards come October. Sometimes going home puts EVERYTHING into perspective. Enjoy your family. Soak everything in. I cannot wait to see what you'll accomplish!?

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