ブランドン・シェイアのインスタグラム(brandoncolbein) - 6月12日 00時56分

My mornings consistent of many many hours of internal thoughts. Honestly the only way to slow it the fuck down is my friend Mary Jane (marijuana if you live under a rock). Today, I’m just laying here pondering so many things so I figured I would share some of those thoughts & see if any of you relate to them 😂 *I want to release my new music so fucking bad but this shit takes time. I don’t wanna release anything until I know I feel good about it. I love my music & I honestly think I have a shot at being very successful but patience is necessary right now. *Lexapro (my new antidepressant) is really helping me with my panic attacks & overall anxiety. The only thing that is pissing me off is that I gained like 40lbs on it. I am down 20lbs of that though now ;) *posting that picture of me in a speedo yesterday was FUCKING hard. I may have a decent body & take care of myself but I used to weigh 100lbs more so posting that pic for me was really brave with all this body dysmorphia I have. *I’m in Palm Springs alone & I am so confused why I haven’t vacationed alone before... y’all should try it. *I recently decided to introduce a little hard alcohol here and there for the first time in many years & it didn’t give me a panic attack which is exciting. Still don’t like drinking very much because hangovers are the worst. *Why the fuck are people so mean to each other especially online... I wish people would really start focusing all this energy on creating beautiful lives for themselves instead of making others feel like shit. *Also, a follow don’t mean shit people... can we focus on building relationships with people for real. Social media is a double edged sword and can be amazing if you don’t take it too seriously & realize that real life is NOT what is shown on Instagram. It’s all carefully selected (or not) but none the less, it isn’t the full story. *I miss my boyfriend and think about him like 254618957 times a day.

[BIHAKUEN]UVシールド(UVShield)

bgood989 I can relate to everything you said. I’m on Lexapro and I am combating weight gain as well. I also smoke a lil to ease my nerves. Looking forward to some new music from you! I feel very disconnected from others even though there are ppl around me. It makes me sad sometimes but gotta keep fighting through and know that it will all get better in time. Thanks for sharing ?

outinindia ?? Don’t be hard on yourself ☺️ You’re music will be worth waiting for, your body looked GREAT in the Speedo photo and yes, Social media can be an evil place, though there are some gems out there, like yourself. Also living in the US can’t be easy - it’s so competitive with society focusing on “image”, rather than soul...

wyattchristo Posting that is super hard, I couldn’t do that with the way I feel about my body, and I think it’s amazing you got to a point where you felt comfortable enough to do it. Aside from even that, you look SO great and you are SO great ?

jabberboi I follow you on social media cause we live a life a long way away. I follow you because you are a beautiful soul and your man is just as beautiful. One day - when and if we meet - I give good bear hugs - so expect one for you both !

jasonisagiraffe Isn’t it so great to just get your thoughts out in the open?? Mary Jane is my absolute best friend and helps me through everything. I like to consider myself a high functioning stoner. Emphasis on the high.

greenserenity33 I hope you can find some peace and relaxation if that's what your are looking for right now. I wish you love..... From down the street in near Palm Springs

>> 飲む日焼け止め！「UVシールド」を購入する