レイチェル・ブレイセンのインスタグラム(yoga_girl) - 4月10日 04時26分
I often forget that I’m actually a pretty decent human being. It can happen at anytime really, this lapse of memory, but mostly if I’m in a low place. Everything will be moving along just fine and suddenly my mind tells me I can’t. I’m not good enough, I’m not worthy. I’m an impostor and I have no idea what im doing. Some mornings there is a voice in the back of my head telling me I might as well just go back to bed; YOU SUCK.
I woke up this am sick as a dog and baby is too and I had meetings and a book to edit and two podcasts to record. I’ve been so excited to talk to @sophiaamoruso and @girlboss for so long but as the time of the recording drew closer I started feeling worse and worse, and around mid morning I had suddenly convinced myself that not only was I too sick to record - I’m not worthy of it anyway. Who am I to tell myself I can have all these amazing people on my show? Actually, who am I kidding, thinking I can interview anybody? Who am I to take up this kind of space? At 10am I decided that I should just cancel. I can’t pull this off. I’m terrible. Not just as an interviewer or host, but as a person. I’m just the worst. Might as well give this whole thing up.
Now, here is the thing. I gave that little voice in the back of my head five minutes to wallow in total misery. Five whole minutes of you suck you suck you suck. It was total shit. I cried. I have a cold. It wasn’t pretty. At 10.05... I decided that: enough. Enough of this. And then I walked outside and watered some plants and drank some juice and hugged my husband and then I took a deep breath and went upstairs to record. And it was AWESOME. Sophia is awesome. First thing she said was; “I’m in a funk. Life is hard”. and then we spoke for two hours and again, I am reminded that we all feel the same and everyone struggles and no one walks alone. Most of the time, our biggest obstacle is just that voice in the back of our heads.
So give it a tiny bit of space. Five minutes max. Then tell it to get the hell out of your way. We have far too many amazing things to create in this life to let self pity stand in the way.
Oh and if you’re wondering.. Guess who else is awesome? Me!🙋🏼♀😌
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