ローラ・ヴァンダーヴォートのインスタグラム(lauravandervoort) - 1月4日 01時34分

I am not naturally an extrovert nor a glass half full kind of a person. I always expect the worst. It’s always felt safer to do so, so that I’m never let down but rather surprised if there’s a positive outcome. Even when something positive happens I don’t allow myself to time to celebrate it for more than a minute or so in fear of the bad that may come from that. In fear of losing it. Laughter can be so rare for me most days. I almost feel guilty for enjoying a good laugh or being overly happy. Like I don’t deserve it or haven’t earned true laughter that day. Maybe that’s normal for some people? It feels like something bad will happen because I’ve let my guard down. If things are going well it always feels like I’m waiting for them to fall apart. I feel like I’m a bad person if I haven’t done everything I can that day to be productive, even if I’m not feeling well. /
This is something I plan to work on in 2019. Enjoying the moment, not being so serious, not being afraid to just BE. Allow myself to still be the quiet me, observe the world, not get down on myself for being quiet. I have a small group of friends (you know who you are) that make me giggle or laugh so hard my stomach hurts. To them I say thank you. .
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#laughter #medicine #itsok #friends #love #live #losangeles #lauravandervoort #thoughts #selfcare #selflove #honestthoughts #human

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