‘Sicklove’ by Ward Roberts @ward.roberts ? About the project ? “My series “Sicklove” documents elements of my relationship with a former partner who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. This series is more personal than my previous works. It carries more private pain. It reflects on ideas of intimacy, immortality and the loss of identity when caring for an ill loved-one. I met him at LaGuardia airport where he was working in the airline industry. I was drawn to his self- assurance, his charisma and his ability to relieve anxiety when he is at his best. He didn’t reveal his illness to me until 10 months into our relationship. It was a very complicated relationship. I didn’t know how to process it. Our time together was marked with extremes. Our moments of intimacy were heightened by a sense of urgency caused by the uncertainty of his condition. There was a magnetism between us which made it hard for either of us to completely break free. It would bring us together, but then tear us apart. Being in love, and then being in love with someone who is dying is something that you don’t know how to handle. We’d fight, and end it every week, but then something would happen and we’d be drawn back together. We were stuck in this toxic loop. The series became my therapy. It became a way I could view the situation through a barrier. A way I could separate myself from what was happening. It was hard for me to release this series. I wanted to use it to get my own battles with mental health out there. Be more vulnerable and honest about how I am feeling. There are times where death was on my brain and I felt like it was my only way out. I used to hide my feelings, but I’ve gotten to the stage where I don’t care anymore. I don’t want to be dramatic about it, or come across as a victim, but I got so exhausted saying that I was fine when I wasn’t. Sometimes I’m fine and life is absolutely wonderful, but sometimes I’m not, and I don’t want to pretend anymore.” Today on vogue.it ?

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