ジェネビーブ・モートンのインスタグラム(genevievemorton) - 5月25日 05時50分

FILMED IN 2015 —When @scottnathaneditions asked me to participate in his project I was uncertain and curious at the same time. I’d spent my entire adult life in front of the camera, under the cover of make up and editing. I had a persona that I wanted people to believe I was. A woman who was outgoing, comfortable in her skin, joyous, free, compassionate and wise. I was unfortunately none of these things. Knowing that I was traumatized, weak, unhappy, judgmental, and caught in emotional bondage, gave me reason to fear what people think about me at all.
About a year before this film was taken I had made the much needed journey into sobriety and a 12 step program. Now unable to numb my feelings and lubricate my social life I was a raw nerve. Everything that was inside of me began to come out in the worst acne of my life. It felt as though my soul was purging. I couldn’t tell you that my self esteem was on the floor because it was lower than the floor.
There were some days that I thought I was doing better only to have the slightest upset send me into a complete spiral. Every character defect I had was playing out in ways that I could not imagine possible. There was no going back, once I had began this journey of self exploration. Like the Mafia I knew too much.
Scott and I had spoken at length about what I was going through and I agreed that lifting the veil on the seemingly perfect outward projection of peoples lives was important. Honesty and transparency has since become a theme in a lot of the content that I have chosen to release online. Every person in the world has an inner life that they want to hide. It’s considered shameful to have negative traits and negative experiences. We run from grief unable to deal with it and are pressured to be fine.
The 2d images that represented who I was could never tell the truth. Even now I know that when people search my name old images come up from before my transformation. In those images I look dead inside, I do not look healthy, I do not look like me. The more I delved into the hidden truths I had coated in a thick blanket of denial the more aware I became of the people around me. (Part 2 is in the comments section)

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