Nicole Eevee Davisのインスタグラム(eeveedavis) - 4月24日 02時10分

A tad lengthy read but I appreciate you taking the time to do so🍃✨my follower count has always been a subject I’m not sure how to appropriately address. I’m so incredibly humbled by all the support and love you guys give me and the encouragement to get through my darkest times is so uplifting I can’t even describe the feeling clearly. People see these numbers as glamours or privileged, maybe I make money off of it, maybe it makes me appear more important than the next person, these quick glanced assumptions are reasons I get nervous about large numbers and what it immediately portrays to the passer by online. I started out on YouTube playing card games like Yugioh and MtG, I needed a place to show my collection binders and cards I was looking to sell or trade because I’d get labeled as a scammer on Facebook groups since “girls don’t take interest in boy hobbies” so that must mean I’m tricking people. But from that I gained the courage to break out of my shell and show my face more. I started making videos about things I like, my feeling, jokes, anything that felt entertaining to me. That slow exposure to the camera and the rest of the internet was what helped me develop people skills, learning how to not be so shy, how to not take what people say to heart, to show my feelings to others without fear. From there I started streaming occasionally, that helped me slowly become more comfortable with public speaking and active communication. I didn’t have to think too hard about what to say, I could just be fluent in my own character. There was a point in time where I had crippling anxiety, I was too afraid to walk into stores for the fear people may read my insecurities. I’ve always admired the charisma of the people online I looked up to, their spirits helped me smile and look forward to a brighter future and I always knew that’s what I wanted to do for others as well. I wanted to be a beacon for people who felt the same as me, self conscious and alone. I stopped when I became claustrophobic to the numbers, but I want to start pursuing that passion again. Thank you all, whether you're new or never left, I want to make you proud♡

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