ジェセニア・バイスのインスタグラム(iamjessenia) - 7月10日 07時44分

Day 19 #100happydays So weird not working at the ER. Today I visited a spot I been dying to check out in Hoboken & the day couldn't have been more gorgeous. Good company. Great convo! Great food! Living up this single life ? No better relationship then one w urself. First time in yrs that I'm enjoying all my hard work & living life. Like literally the last 3yrs if I wasn't working in the city , I was working at the ER n then go home every night in bed glued to a tv, even on days off. I thought it was QT time so I dealt w it. I did enjoy the convos n the baking , the working out n the other good good. But damn I really did nothing else Ughhh why did I let that happen. I know now I deserved so much more w everything I did. Yes it was depressing then as it is depression reflecting on how bad it was. I was treated less than a basic chick when I'm faaaar from that. I swear when I love I put up w shit lol my ex before beat me n this one betrayed me on so many levels, hey I still wish them both well. But Never again will I let someone treat me less than my worth. I'm good , loyal n strong. I thought sucking up w bs n putting up w things made me a ride or die , basically prove my love to them but I finally learned u can't accomplish that when ppl aren't happy w themselves. Hey god has a funny way of teaching us lessons, both were totally different situations but in the end the same kind of person, bc of their inner demons n insecurities got the best of them.both wanted validation n power. So weird bc I felt it early on. I had freaked out bc it took me back, like a flashback. I shoulda gone w my instinct then but he fought for me n idk why n it doesn't matter why he fought anymore. Now I know all the signs thanks to reflection , hearin other ppls feedback that met him once, n who have known him through out. Lesson learned. Thnx Lord! I DODGE another bullet. What woulda happened had he given me the ? (sent me a pic of it something like my ex prior did too ::my neck hair raises:: , what woulda happened had I said yes, had we gotten the ? crap had we gotten ????n then all of this happen ? I'm counting my blessings. On to bigger , greater & brighter things??

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