ジェシカ・ゾアのインスタグラム(sparethemerder) - 1月26日 09時10分

they're never going to teach you about heartbreak. you're going to have to figure it out yourself.

heartbreak is going to feel alot like food poisoning when he leaves, even though you haven't eaten in days. you don't talk, you don't open your mouth, you just lay on the bathroom floor so everytime you feel words coming up and pushing to spit out, you'll be able to reach for the toilet to flush away the screams.
heartbreak will start to feel alot like a disease when your mom
demands why you're shivering under four blankets and you'll try to explain to her that you're cold like if all the sunshine has left your bloodstream and veins. you're cold like standing without an umbrella in the rain.
heartache will feel like the cold that follows you around all winter. it'll creep up on you like a fog in the spring, and you'll never have the chance to see it coming. so when you wake up suddenly because he's calling you at 3 AM after 6 months, and you feel that chill in your bones and the pounding in my head and your teeth are chattering, don't pick up. this is a sickness that you can prevent. don't pick up, baby girl, no matter how many times he calls, because even though you've pictured yourself rejecting his apology a million times, you'll break faster then you can take a breath. scream into your pillow and block his number from your phone. you wanted him back once, but not anymore.

it's okay to push him out of your mind and it's okay to cry about it, but don't let yourself fall victim to the sickness again, baby girl. you are stronger than that.

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